{"product_id":"something-about-jesus-leaving-church-and-following-jesus-out-the-door-9798218846930","title":"Something About Jesus: Leaving Church and Following Jesus Out the Door","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eTori Beck grew up thinking that God was always on the verge of hating her.\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eGod didn't seem like a being she wanted to like, but she also didn't want to be on his bad side. As a result, she did everything in her power to please him. As she grew up and listened to the stories of others - through jail ministry, walking alongside friends struggling with addiction, suicidal ideation, and self-harm, working on a Native American reservation, traveling abroad, and all of the things she learned through college and grad school - her experience became increasingly incongruent with what she thought she believed.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eThis incongruence built up for many years until she couldn't take it anymore: She pulled one block from her carefully constructed tower of theology, and it toppled without hesitation.\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eTori's remaining pieces of faith seemed hopeless, so she thought about walking away completely. Why bother when it seemed like there was nothing redeemable left in Christianity? What was the point when she had become such a \u003cstrong\u003e\u003cem\u003eproblem\u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/strong\u003e in her faith circles?\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eBut she couldn't shake what she was beginning to learn about Jesus, now with fresh eyes; she couldn't help but take another look.\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eSomething About Jesus is a memoir about her process of deconstruction, searching, questioning, raging, and getting to know the Jesus that was there all along while being pushed out of church spaces for \"straying.\"\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThe process of her deconstruction was long, winding, and at times, excruciating. But another reality competes for prominence in this story: \u003cstrong\u003eit was all worth it\u003c\/strong\u003e. The freedom and peace she found on this side of deconstruction is unmatched. \u003cstrong\u003eBest of all, she has finally come to know the Jesus who was hidden from her for so long.\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eAbout the Author\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eBeck, Tori:\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e - Tori Beck earned a bachelor's in psychology and a master's in school counseling, landing her a job in the youth mental health care field. After struggling with anxiety and OCD in a religious context, she has become passionate about mental health advocacy and recovery from religious trauma in the Christian space. Her story of deconstruction is inextricably intertwined with mental health. Though deconstruction was a painful process, it has brought her unmatched peace and joy in her faith.Tori's love for writing comes from over a decade of using it as a way to process life. Most often, she has processed through blogs and poetry. Something About Jesus: Leaving Church and Following Jesus out the Door is her first publication.","brand":"Tori Beck","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":52078003749138,"sku":"9798218846930","price":13.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0831\/4771\/8930\/files\/img_27cf94eb-9d4d-44db-adc3-f00835cc53ce.jpg?v=1772527172","url":"https:\/\/surprise-castle.myshopify.com\/products\/something-about-jesus-leaving-church-and-following-jesus-out-the-door-9798218846930","provider":"Surprise Castle","version":"1.0","type":"link"}